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I'm Back, my friends...
Jan. 19th, 2003 10:15 pm*Looooooong sigh*
So.
I'm back.
Back in the Land of Perpetual Ice and Snow... and I'm not thrilled about it. Classes start tomorrow, and, in light of last semester's hell, I am not looking foward to a repeat performance. However, I'm not taking as many credits this time, so the % chance of me committing seppuku before the semester is out has been lowered.
So my winter break was... breaky. I don't know. I worked a lot, saw Chicago 3 times (because it kicks ASS!!), alternately loved/put up with my family by hourly turns, survived Christmas Eve AND Day with my family AND Panther-- together--oh yes, that was muchly interesting.... made it to The Church TWICE, bummed around with my joyously beautiful and painfully cool siblings, REFUSED to TOUCH a computer as much as I possibly could (ahh! what bliss!), did the dishes, discovered that I unwittingly invented Reiki for myself when I was 12 for a character I was writing at the time-- the fact that I can actually learn to apply this system in the real world comes as a happy shock. We'll see if I ever become as adept as Telperien (hah! not but by the grace of the Goddess), slept in my own bed, prayed a lot, especially to keep my father out of jail, which has appeared to work, visited with my grandparents a few times, let my mother use me as a guinea pig for her newly certified talents as an RMT and colon hydrotherapist (don't ask unless you really wanna know), missed my friends a lot, missed my Love a lot-- I spent lots of family time, which was needed, but between family and work.... well.... Break just wasn't long enough; i didn't get to see as many people as I wanted or spend as much time as I wanted with the few I got to see-- but enough kvetching.
If it hadn't been for Bunny's New Year's party, there woulda been a lot more people I didn't get to see at all, so I'm really happy that it happened. And what a frelling party!! Oh my gosh. The drinks were plentiful, Techno Posties in the living room was beautiful, but when the clock stuck midnight and I had my Love beside me and all my friends were singing Auld Lang Syne-- no, not just the chorus everyone knows, but the WHOLE thing with ALL the words-- it nearly brought tears to my eyes. Let me just say for the record-- I really do have the greatest friends anywhere on earth. I don't know what I did in a past life to deserve this, but it seems everywhere I go, even if it takes me a while, I end up finding the coolest people ever to hang out with, and somehow they like me back! Ahh, I love my friends, yes I do.
Sometimes I think, there must have been a point before I incarnated in this life, where my spirit guides said to me, "okay, you have two choices: 1, you can choose to be surrounded by people all the time who you can just hang out with casually. You will have a boyfriend or girlfriend if you wish, that will always be around, always there when you need them. But all these people's sentiments will be lukewarm-to-average, at most. No more powerful than normal. But you'll have normal, steady levels of emotional reinforcement. Friends and lovers will come and go, but you'll always have someone around.
Or, #2, you can choose to walk a lone path, spending large chunks of your life in solitude, cultivating your personal growth, your own spirit, with little or no guidance. You will need to rely on yourself for emotional support, mostly. You will sometimes wonder if you exist at all... but for brief pockets in your life where you bond with a soul here, a soul there-- everyone you become friends or lovers with will develop a connection with you of such depth, of such intensity, that no matter how far you roam, or how long you're apart, when you return it will be as if you never left-- your ties will stay true and strong-- love will burn bright with you always."
and i must've chosen the 2nd one, 'cause it's always all or nothing with me, it seems. I have such a busy schedule all the time, but it doesn't leave me with much time for nurturing relationships-- it's like i'm as bone dry as a desert socially for weeks, and then i'll spend a day or night with someone I love, and we rarely just "chill" or "chat"; at some point we usually go into this deep well of conversation. Sparse but intense, i guess that describes my social life. I guess it's better that way, not to be surrounded with mere sycophants but to have actual real True Friends, however rarely I get to spend any time with them....
So to any of you who feel neglected by me, know that I miss you too, and I still care, and I'm still here... somewhere, on this little blue planet. If you're wishing we could get together more often, guess what? Me too. Mental Hugs to all of you, wherever you are-- you know who you are.....
SoxieAllyJoBoatsRoovBriceJonRickiGeneaAlishaToadieMattKrisMattJimMatt(okay so I know like 15 Matts!)GingerToryIrene DavidCaptainCaseyStephen PantherLauraBunnyMattTrotSusieChrisHelenaTimJasonScottyRobSara Ms.MillerPeterAraiGuyAmyMs.Seto JoshNokaGrannyMr.MalacaraMs.HurstLindsayAriannaChanceTracyMr.WillitsMr.BMr.BMr.JohnsMimiJoeTambryBenKen LacyTomasTaraMichael CattCorinneJackieTawney MaureenSteveKateMaryKatieProf.BlossMelodyMelanieJamesMikaylaDamonJen ToniannMattTimDougMr.HutchisonVirginiaJasonTeresaAlexAlexVaccaro N2SpiritElahrairSamsonAmanda PaulmarkKristenDanCarla *gasp*
and those are just the ones I can think of right now of the top o' my head... all people who've made an impact on my life.... who, if they needed help and showed up on my doorstep, I'd do anything I could to help them....and maybe some things I couldn't. Some of you, I don't know where you are right now or if I'll ever see you again. But even if I don't, I won't forget you, and I wish you well....
but now, if you'll all excuse me, I must say goodnight, because I have four classes tomorrow (talk about jumping in with both feet!) and this girlie need some sleepy or she will be a zombie very shortly.
oh, and I like this one:
So.
I'm back.
Back in the Land of Perpetual Ice and Snow... and I'm not thrilled about it. Classes start tomorrow, and, in light of last semester's hell, I am not looking foward to a repeat performance. However, I'm not taking as many credits this time, so the % chance of me committing seppuku before the semester is out has been lowered.
So my winter break was... breaky. I don't know. I worked a lot, saw Chicago 3 times (because it kicks ASS!!), alternately loved/put up with my family by hourly turns, survived Christmas Eve AND Day with my family AND Panther-- together--oh yes, that was muchly interesting.... made it to The Church TWICE, bummed around with my joyously beautiful and painfully cool siblings, REFUSED to TOUCH a computer as much as I possibly could (ahh! what bliss!), did the dishes, discovered that I unwittingly invented Reiki for myself when I was 12 for a character I was writing at the time-- the fact that I can actually learn to apply this system in the real world comes as a happy shock. We'll see if I ever become as adept as Telperien (hah! not but by the grace of the Goddess), slept in my own bed, prayed a lot, especially to keep my father out of jail, which has appeared to work, visited with my grandparents a few times, let my mother use me as a guinea pig for her newly certified talents as an RMT and colon hydrotherapist (don't ask unless you really wanna know), missed my friends a lot, missed my Love a lot-- I spent lots of family time, which was needed, but between family and work.... well.... Break just wasn't long enough; i didn't get to see as many people as I wanted or spend as much time as I wanted with the few I got to see-- but enough kvetching.
If it hadn't been for Bunny's New Year's party, there woulda been a lot more people I didn't get to see at all, so I'm really happy that it happened. And what a frelling party!! Oh my gosh. The drinks were plentiful, Techno Posties in the living room was beautiful, but when the clock stuck midnight and I had my Love beside me and all my friends were singing Auld Lang Syne-- no, not just the chorus everyone knows, but the WHOLE thing with ALL the words-- it nearly brought tears to my eyes. Let me just say for the record-- I really do have the greatest friends anywhere on earth. I don't know what I did in a past life to deserve this, but it seems everywhere I go, even if it takes me a while, I end up finding the coolest people ever to hang out with, and somehow they like me back! Ahh, I love my friends, yes I do.
Sometimes I think, there must have been a point before I incarnated in this life, where my spirit guides said to me, "okay, you have two choices: 1, you can choose to be surrounded by people all the time who you can just hang out with casually. You will have a boyfriend or girlfriend if you wish, that will always be around, always there when you need them. But all these people's sentiments will be lukewarm-to-average, at most. No more powerful than normal. But you'll have normal, steady levels of emotional reinforcement. Friends and lovers will come and go, but you'll always have someone around.
Or, #2, you can choose to walk a lone path, spending large chunks of your life in solitude, cultivating your personal growth, your own spirit, with little or no guidance. You will need to rely on yourself for emotional support, mostly. You will sometimes wonder if you exist at all... but for brief pockets in your life where you bond with a soul here, a soul there-- everyone you become friends or lovers with will develop a connection with you of such depth, of such intensity, that no matter how far you roam, or how long you're apart, when you return it will be as if you never left-- your ties will stay true and strong-- love will burn bright with you always."
and i must've chosen the 2nd one, 'cause it's always all or nothing with me, it seems. I have such a busy schedule all the time, but it doesn't leave me with much time for nurturing relationships-- it's like i'm as bone dry as a desert socially for weeks, and then i'll spend a day or night with someone I love, and we rarely just "chill" or "chat"; at some point we usually go into this deep well of conversation. Sparse but intense, i guess that describes my social life. I guess it's better that way, not to be surrounded with mere sycophants but to have actual real True Friends, however rarely I get to spend any time with them....
So to any of you who feel neglected by me, know that I miss you too, and I still care, and I'm still here... somewhere, on this little blue planet. If you're wishing we could get together more often, guess what? Me too. Mental Hugs to all of you, wherever you are-- you know who you are.....
SoxieAllyJoBoatsRoovBriceJonRickiGeneaAlishaToadieMattKrisMattJimMatt(okay so I know like 15 Matts!)GingerToryIrene DavidCaptainCaseyStephen PantherLauraBunnyMattTrotSusieChrisHelenaTimJasonScottyRobSara Ms.MillerPeterAraiGuyAmyMs.Seto JoshNokaGrannyMr.MalacaraMs.HurstLindsayAriannaChanceTracyMr.WillitsMr.BMr.BMr.JohnsMimiJoeTambryBenKen LacyTomasTaraMichael CattCorinneJackieTawney MaureenSteveKateMaryKatieProf.BlossMelodyMelanieJamesMikaylaDamonJen ToniannMattTimDougMr.HutchisonVirginiaJasonTeresaAlexAlexVaccaro N2SpiritElahrairSamsonAmanda PaulmarkKristenDanCarla *gasp*
and those are just the ones I can think of right now of the top o' my head... all people who've made an impact on my life.... who, if they needed help and showed up on my doorstep, I'd do anything I could to help them....and maybe some things I couldn't. Some of you, I don't know where you are right now or if I'll ever see you again. But even if I don't, I won't forget you, and I wish you well....
but now, if you'll all excuse me, I must say goodnight, because I have four classes tomorrow (talk about jumping in with both feet!) and this girlie need some sleepy or she will be a zombie very shortly.
oh, and I like this one:
